Lens: Voigtlander nokton 50mm f1.1
Camera: NEX-7, ISO200, f16, 1/125, raw
So, Mr. Bunny the suicidal is back. The last time we met him was at day 178, a long time ago, it was summer, I just came back from Alaska and my job for Sony, and I was then getting totally sucked into photography, body and soul sucked. At the time of the last suicidal bunny shot I already knew that my fate was written, than I was eventually going to give up on my job as a scientist to devote all my energies and time to nourish the photography business.
Today I’m a long way down that road. I resigned from my permanent position and I signed for a part-time project related contract, both to have more free time to devote to photography and to come clean with my employers. Now everybody knows what I do for a living and which are my life goals.
The wedding photography business will keep us busy quite a lot, this year, and I have almost closed a sponsorship for the photographic project which will follow the 365(+1) Days of NEX-7. All the feedbacks are fantastic, so I finally feel aligned with my life…
Then it happens that when I decide to take the last Mr. Bunny shot for this project, to farewell him from his duties as a metaphor of my fears and insecurities, I ended up discovering I still feel stuck somewhere. And it is into studio lightings. That is, to fashion/commercial photography. I put so much (money and) time into in the last couple of months that I feel frustrated not to be producing anything “real”.
Sure, I took a couple of family and maternity portraits in my studio, but I want to do something more challenging. So, I guess my current urge is to “shoot models in studio” more than anything else. Now that I know where I’m stuck, I can start working to get me (and Mr. Bunny) out of it.