03 Oct
235/365(+1) by Luca Rossini
235/365(+1), a photo by Luca Rossini on Flickr.

Lens: Voigtlander color-skopar 35mm f2.5
Camera: NEX-7, ISO100, f4, 1/160, raw

I should and I would if I could.

Why can’t you?

Because. I won’t till I can and they want me to.

Are you happy?

Are they happy?

This is quite an accurate picture of the conversation I had in my head for the whole afternoon. And evening. And night. Well, it’s more or less the daily mental conversation. Mental because it happens in my mind, but also because it’s driving me mental. The big difference is the last question. That was added today. When I realized that I screwed up something at my office work. Things could have gone right just if I had done what I said I would and what I wanted to. But I didn’t. Cause the day I said I would I had a horrible headache. And I was tired. And I had other thousands of things to do. And somehow, quietly and softly, the thing slipped off my mind, till I forgot it. And then I forgot that I forgot it. And then it was lost forever.

Till today, when it came back in the form of a failure. I hate failures. Who doesn’t. They really make me sad and angry with myself. And since me is just me, I need a higher me to criticize me. And that’s how the conversation starts.

And yet, there is a very good thing coming out of this day. For as angry, sad, self-disappointed I was, yet when it came to shoot the family portraits I had scheduled for the late afternoon I did a great job. In the past I wouldn’t have been able to take half-decent shots if I wasn’t completely focused. Now I can. This is an important step for any profession. To realize a consistent product no matter what.

They are Marina and Anita, mother and daughter, a brother on his way (you can’t really see she’s pregnant in this shot, though). Marina asked us to portray her and her daughter playing together and with the pregnancy. We had shots of Anita playing with a little locomotive on her mother’s belly, then we used other accessories such as ribbons, flowers, and even a small quilt with the name of the soon-to-be-born brother. They had a good time, I managed to enjoy the shooting as much as I could, and then the day was finally over.

At night Claudia and I went to the movie theater to watch the new Batman movie. Well, at least he’s darker than me and has much more personality issues, and yet he isn’t doing so bad, so why should I?

4 thoughts on “235/365(+1)”

  1. Very cute photo. I also hate mistakes of my own, as no-one else is to blame and I try to lead a logical and thought-out life. Sometimes, it is impossible to do so – we are human, after all!

    As for the Batman movie; what did you think of it? Not as good as The Dark Knight in my humble opinion, but that was a hard act to follow. The Dark Night was much darker, and this one much more anarchistic. However, I understood the Joker was chaos and put my mind in uncomfortable places, but in this latest film, I actually ended up siding more with Bane than Batman.

    For example, I loved the following dialogue:

    Stock exchange worker: “This is a stock exchange. There’s no money you can steal”

    Bane: “Really? Then why are you people here?”

    1. Hi Martin. Thanks for the support 🙂
      Of the three Batman movies, this is the one I liked less. Bruce Wayne seems to chase darkness more than to have fallen into it. Bane is a bad guy, but more like the violent reaction to what the world is turning into than a real menace to our society. Also, I didn’t fully understand his plan neither his reasons. Of the three movies I still prefer the first one better. I loved the whole discussion about the difference from a vigilante and a symbol, and the plan of the bad guy was highly philosophical and deeply wicked: resetting society by turning everyone into a psychotic killer for one night, so that from the dawn of the day after that wouldn’t have been good or bad guys anymore…

      1. I agree; that one is also my favourite. What I enjoyed most about this particular film, was the IMAX experience here in Tokyo. It felt like I was transported into the future of cinema-watching!

        As for Bane’s reasoning, my take on it was that he set out to do what Bruce couldn’t and Raz Al-ghul could never finish – to burn Gotham to the ground to reset the corruption. This was certainly weaker, but better than most rom-coms 😀

        1. OK, I see your point. But then again why all the fuss about giving the citizens a hope and then killing them all anyway? That was as much twisted as it was useless, wasn’t it?
          How different is the IMAX in Tokyo from normal movie theaters?

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