Sony RX1, 35mm f2 Carl Zeiss
ISO500, f/2.5, 1/80, raw
So, I looked at my body, I tried to get rid of all the layers, suits, masks, titles, and anything else I used to see whenever I looked at myself “before”. At the end of the exercise I found just a physical body, a living human being, not so different from anyone else.
Then I looked at the things I had surrounded me with. My tools tell about my habits, they show how I like things done, but I didn’t really find anything I couldn’t see myself living without. Because the tools alone, once extracted from what’s around them, that is, my environment, tell the story of a lonely person. That isn’t a lie “per se”, I actually wanted a detached view over my personal world, but by doing that I only found the relation between the body (that isn’t me, just part of me) and the tools I use (which aren’t me either). The body alone with its needs.
So, now I’m turning my study towards the people my life has been filled with. I know I do judge others by the people they surround themselves with. So I’ll try to do the same with myself, my people. Now, I’m not interested in seeing how we hang out, I know that. I want to see how they are when I’m not around. What they do, how they do it, what’s around them.
She’s my sister. She’s a PhD candidate in Architecture, and a musician. She has a real talent for singing and has already written a few excellent songs. She’s five years and a half younger than me, and she’s walking in very similar shoes to mine. She has a degree, she’s now studying/working for her PhD, she has a strong passion for an art in which she’s very talented, she constantly lives/fights the impulse to live a different life, where passions and talents are more valuable than degrees and working experiences.
She has something I don’t, however: she has an older brother which is walking that crazy pathway right now. I don’t really know if this is an asset or a burden. I can’t say if I’m an asset or a burden to my little sister.